Praying Past Your Preferred Outcomes
Is a wonderful article sent to me my Mrs. C, thank you! Curtis and I have been
praying this way since we found out what my condition might be. I have to agree
that the Holy Spirit does intercede when all we can do is groan! (Romans 8:36)
Being so sick and feeling like I was going to die, I mean really feeling the
profound muscle weakness in my throat and tongue brought me to the point of
complete dependence on God. I was in a constant state of crying out to Him
to help me glorify Him and for peace. The only way I can describe it was sweet.
It was completely letting go of all I wanted, needed, cared for and putting
every fiber of my being in His hands. Hands that could heal me if He chose to.
Although I expected/ asked Him to do it, I trusted that if He didn't, He knew
what would glorify Him. That is a difficult pill to swallow for people
who do not know that Lord. What could possibly be gained by a mother of four
dying a horrible death of atrophy and suffocation. What? WHAT!? A testimony.
To make the life of Jesus evident (2 Cor. 4:10-11) How would anyone know He
is real if they did not see the work He is doing in my life despite the
degeneration that is going on in my body? That I have peace that my kids will
grow up and be healthy humans despite my death. That I know everyone who
knew and loved me could go on. That I will never do all the things I desired
to do in this life. The reality of knowing where I will go and who I will
be with when I go is a comfort beyond measure. Knowing that I've not failed at
"attaining" anything. Knowing that I have had to do nothing but believe on
the name of Jesus and what He was offering me. How could I not submit
myself to the kind of great Love that reached out from eternity to comfort
and wrap It's arms around me. (Hebrews 4:14) You bet I trust Him.
Moorea
Eph 3:13-21 "So I ask you not to lose heart over what I am suffering for you, which is your glory. For this reason I bow my knees before the Father, from whom every family [fn] in heaven and on earth is named, that according to the riches of his glory he may grant you to be strengthened with power through his Spirit in your inner being, so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith--that you, being rooted and grounded in love, may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do far more abundantly than all that we ask or think, according to the power at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
