What was I thinking? That drinking green pulp would be easy and pleasant?
Yep- I'm a Pollyanna. But it has been T minus 9 hours and I am ready to
GIVE UP! Remember when Pollyanna got hurt and gave up being so cheerful
because she "faced the reality" she was never going to walk again? That's
me. I have been so optimistic about this Vegan thing. It has helped, but
now that I am doing it full time ( 1 day!), it seems monumental. It IS
monumental.
Why is it so hard? Chili. I made chili for the kids. Yum. Yeah- YUM!
It smells so good! I am sipping on my juice. Trying not to take a bite.
Dan is putting the food away. I know I can do it. I know I can. I know I can!
I know I can because the results are disastrous if I do not. A few weeks
ago I knew I was going to stop talking because of the profound weakness
in my tongue and jaw. This is the Ultra Voice Plus a handy device
that helps ALS patients to communicate and live a full life even though
they have stopped talking. Ironically this device terrifies and motivates
me. It represents the horrible reality that even Vegan eating to avoid
MSG may not be able to stop it, but motivates me to continue, because it
just may be the beginning of the healing process.
Where are you in this Lord?
"O LORD, no one but you can help the powerless against the mighty! Help us, O LORD our God, for we trust in you alone. It is in your name that we have come against this vast horde. O LORD, you are our God; do not let mere men prevail against you!"
2 Chronicles 14:11
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